Mountain of light

Leaving on a holiday is so easy. Get the backpack out, throw in a few clothes, pocket the tickets and all set to go on a vacation. No laptop to carry, no presentations to worry about, no appointments to reconfirm and no formal clothes to be washed and ironed.. However what is not so easy is leaving the daily worry schedule behind. Leaving career worries, financial worries and general in life worries and stresses that seem to take up more and more of my time. Maybe the vacation will give me the oppurtunity to look it all from a distance as a third person looking at the worries and myself at the same time. It will probably help me see how miniscule these issues are in the larger scheme of things. Or maybe not. Maybe i'll just soak up the sun, eat sleep and read as I usually do on all my vacations.

Who wants to think and analyse anyways. What good has analysis done to anyone. What good has it done to me. It just makes simple things complicated and suddenly you don't know what to do or what not to do. If you are a student or a practicioner of business management then you might think this is the apt time to call in a consultant. Unfortunately, that is not the case with my personal affairs. There is no consultant to call in and there is no report that will deal with my worries. The problems, stresses are all mine and have to be dealt by me or they just lie unresolved. Which is not such a bad thing actually. I have so many unresolved issues and I just tend to conviniently forget them unless the whole thing blows up on my face or I am reminded of it or both. You hear so many quotes on life that you begin to think that one day at the fag end of your life you might churn out a quote yourself and that quote would also sum up your life as it has been or as it has not been. That quote might be your sole contribution to the the business of living and to the english language if you are lucky. Oneday someone might read that quote and truly identify with it. Not that it will make a diffrence to either his life or yours but then what makes a difference anyway.

I have spent two years writing into this blog and analysing to death everything that I have written about. I have churned out a few bylines in the process. Maybe people have come to my blog and identified with what I have said or maybe its got them confused. Maybe its made things clearer for me than what it was before I started to write about it. But again what do I do with this clear picture of issues that don't affect my immediate life.I might frame this picture and hang it up in my living room and look at it once in a while. But what about the issues that affect me more closely, nothing that I seem to think or do makes things clear there. But to be fair I don't do much about them anyway. Except taking vacations to run away from them once in a while.

Happy Holidays!